...ramblings...

So, I've been trying to make better video for you guys... better clarity in picture, better editing, and what not...  this is the first one I actually believe I did a really good job with considering my resources... LOL! don't let the editing of my videos fool you, I actually did go to school for this, and I'm pretty good at it... Money and WLMM hate me! please watch the video and tell me what you think.. Also, I really need ppl to send my requests for looks cause I'm bored...and un-imaginative these days... Love YOU for reading...and watching!

So I finally reuploaded the "Sweet Pink" tutorial I did back in July.. Also I recorded a tut for this super simple purple smokey eye... That should be edited and up by the end of the week... Along with another...   s/n : I rolled my hair on 6  gray flexi-rods after I straightened my hair...  I wore it straight for a day... but if you keep up with me than you know I don't like my hair straight so much...especially after a fresh relax... So I rolled it up after doing my nightly M/S silly...

So...today I got a relaxer after 21 weeks post, my last relax was 3.20.2011... This stretch was ridiculously easy... I mean it seriously made me consider transitioning... Anyways... Me hair is basically the same length as my last length check with the exception of the side layers I have.. They are nearing APL while the tail of my hair hasn't really moved... I must say the hair is MUCH healthier... Like MUCH...  It has to have been all the steaming I did while protective styling using braids... Plus I fell in love with S-Curl... So yeah here's a pic... should've cleaned the mirror... but...meh My dream of reaching WL by my 26th birthday as set by my "One Year To Change My Life" Challenge looks like its going to be a fail... But I'll be really close... Like really... Anyways... Thanks for reading...

I know most of time ppl never read the really mushy stuff about ppl's feeling and what have you... But I need an outlet... I just feel myself feeling less like myself.. I'm slipping away... This is not way I planned life to be like... This is not what I wanted... It just sucks... And the more it sucks the more unmotivated and sad I become... I really need to work on this... Nothing seems to be working tho... :(